I accepted Jesus as my savior when I was 16. This was the 1st time I heard the gospel presented in a way I could understand. I did not understand fully the commitment I was making then and now I do fully! I knew then I did not want to go to hell and accepted Jesus as my Savior. I have pretty-much lived a luke-warm Christian life. I was ordained as a Deacon in my Baptist Church. I have tried to live a good life for Him, but often lived in sin. I have always had a strong conscious and stayed away from what I called the bad sins. Never felt rebellious. Now at age 62, God woke me up 12-months ago and I have spent several hours everyday studying and praying. I do not know what my spiritual gifts are, cannot pray in tongues, and am having a very hard time hearing from God. I have spent hours and hours asking why I am not hearing Him while reading His Word, and praying. I repent of my sins daily now. Some days, I feel very close to Him, and some days not. I start off every morning in worship and praise to Him.
Please pray that I will start hearing from Him. I now want to make Him number 1 in my life! Once, recently early in the morning, I heard Him whisper in my ear: “YOU WILL LAY YOUR LIFE DOWN WITH HIGH HUMILITY”.
Deuteronomy 4:29 King James Version (KJV)
29 But if from thence thou shalt seek the Lord thy God, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul.